Role Models was fucking hilarious, "whispering eye" hahahaha

Note to self: don't give number out to bitches I don't know, only get their's. STOP CALLING ME!

I have matured. The reason I've grown apart from so many people is because they act like they're still in high school and getting wasted as an excuse to put out is acceptable.

I now enjoy having mature, civilized conversations with people about life, politics, etc etc.

I noticed some people have smartened up and quit smoking, and it's pretty weird that we did it at the same time.

The only drug I use now is exhaustion. The endorphines I get pumping through my body when I work out is unmatchable. 6 days a week and I've never felt so great in my life.

What's more pathetic than a 16 year old trying to act older when it's less mature than a 14 year old? 18, 19, and 20 year olds like a 16 year old. So fucking pathetic.

I'm so glad I got rid of all the drama-causers in my life. They are nothing more than a flashback.

Continuing this new path in my life is essential to being successful and happy.

I'm liking this strategy of fucking and not committing. No one gets hurt and theres no ball and chain. Quite an amazing concept.

Interview at CVS tomorrow morning. weeeeeeeeeeeeee

Karma. Bad people get what they deserve at some point. This makes me smile.

It's nature to be every man for himself, to an extent. Everyone is selfish, also to an extent. But considering what I've dealt with, calling me selfish is just a joke. Hypocrites are scum.

If I see a squirrel, I swerve. If someone is sick, I get them medicine. If someone is upset, I go to them. I don't ask people for rides.

Talk about failure.

It's pretty disheartening to see people you've done tons of favors for (driving them everywhere) act like they don't owe you any favors. Sickening. I drove people around, a lot. Then they give me the "wtf" look when I ask for one favor, no, just no.

I'm watching The Moment of Truth and the question was "do fat people repulse you?" It made me lol.

Sprained my ankle two days ago when I was shootin' some hoops with bro. At first it was blinding pain, and I thought I tore a ligament or tendon. I seriously would kill myself if I had another summer ruined because I have to recovery from a stupid injury. Luckily, the swelling's gone down, but I can't put too much weight on it. Going to the Y yesterday was good for it, it feels a lot looser now. Some lifeguards there were fuckin' smokin' and whenever I looked one's way, she would be looking at me and turn her head like she wasn't. I love her coyness.

Hahaha this guy on the show is hilarious. I should have recorded it on DVR.

I really wish my father would die. This isn't even a post out of raw anger. I thought about it. He is the second biggest piece of shit in the world.

Yeah sure he's a good provider, etc. etc. blah blah blah. But he has the worst personality, scratch that, second, of any human being I have ever encountered. Life would just be much more stress free for everybody. DIE DIE DIE DIE

Went to Shannon's house for her 19th today. Very, very, good times. I can't help but exercise my wooing abilities.

Going to shore point distributors Monday morning. Driving a truck for 11 bills an hour can't be so bad. Only thing that may sway my decision is getting up at 5 AM 5 days a week. Ouchers.

Now time to go hit the hay. I love the cold side of my pillow.

Bob just left and I'm waiting for him to get home so we can play DOD. I'm watching Lars and the Real Girl at the moment, quite a buzz kill if you ask me. I checked to see if the site in the movie is real (realdoll.com) and apparently it is. It is pretty depressing knowing some people actually have to order these heaps of silicone to relieve loneliness. I guess everyone has their niche?

Bob's dog Jake died yesterday, due to unknown causes. His parents found him in the backyard when they got home. I've known the dog for 8 years as well, so it hit me pretty hard. I also saw glimpses of Cookie approaching the same ill-fate. Life is a fucking bitch. Times like this make me realize how we have to show our loved ones that we do actually love them all the time, because that time can come at any time.

Still searching for a job and trying to work out/run 6 times a week. I feel like shit when I don't do something athletic at least once a day. That's a good thing though.

I kinda want to go to Wildwood, but now I don't really want to intrude. We'll see though.

I drank the appropriate amount to maintain having a good time. Chilled with rozzi, cheech, bryguy, and jordan. Jordan is actually really chill. Beer pong was never nearly as fun in college as it was there. I'm surprised. Me and cheech and actually beat jordan and rozzi, LOLZ. I'm watching reservoir dogs and quentin terentino doesn't look like he has down syndrome. Wtf?

It was great chilling with some people that I don't see all that much.

Tomorrow should consist of hardcore jobhunting. Being a gigolo isn't that bad if I wear protection, is it?

Hmm I'm not going to resort to name calling but I will let other people decide whether you want me.

Here are the facts:
1. You called me Friday and Saturday to hang out.
2. "l love him and miss him at the same time want to rip his heart out for being a piece of shit" in your LJ.
3. You call me at 5:30 AM to tell me that you had sex with Devin Seaman. You say you called me because you needed someone to tell. Out of EVERYONE else you could have told, you bothered me. Trying to get me jealous? No doubt about it.

Oh, oh, OH, and you lied and said Rozzi told you that I was the one who told him about Meg and Dan. LOLOLOL. I called him and he said you're full of shit. As always, when I prove that you lie, you call me names and be a vindictive nutjob, twisting stories around to obscure others' views on me.

Your throat problems really don't surprise me. *rolls eyes*

I saw Rambo 4 tonight, because Bob found the DVD in a cart. I guess that job has a good side to it after all. I thought it was exhilarating. Watching bad guys get blown to bits is always fun. Now I feel like seeing Rocky Balboa since I didn't know Stallone still had it in'em.

I also noticed that a lot of old geezers are making comebacks in the past couple years: Bruce Willis, Harrison Ford, Stallone, etc.

I must ask, why have my last two nights ended in running away from the cops? Is it a sign that I need to calm down?

Hell no, I'm having way too much fun. There's nothing better than a good ol' rush. Although my feet got some cuts and I had to wash my self vigorously because the thought of getting poison ivy scares the shit out of me. And ticks, I hate those little fuckers. I tried to kill one when I was younger with a bat, and just ended up breaking a tile. He's probably still crawling around here somewhere.

Well I'm supposed to text her tomorrow about grabbing that cup of coffee, she's still "together" with that lame ass toddler, but not b/f g/f. Why must girls be confusing as balls? Well we'll see what happens from there. I'm thinking beach at night.

I'll be the first to admit I had a hell of a time last summer going out with you, but things change and people change. There was just way too much shit that happened between the end of last summer and now, and there will always be that awkwardness. I hate awkwardness, so I want to avoid it all costs.

I find myself see-sawing all the time on my beliefs when it comes to girls. Some days I just want some nice sweaty, smelly sex. And other days I want a companion to be able to lay next to, and not have to talk and still not be bored. Right now I'm really into the second one.

A Shot at Love was on tonight. I wasn't surprised about who went home. Glitter is an annoying piece of shit. Scottie was just there and never actually does anything. He also got his ass handed to him by Jersey. Jay's a douchebag, but I'm still rooting for him. Btw Lisa's such a fucking dike, she could have taken all the guys down at once. Seriously.

Anyway, on a brighter note, I may be going to work at Sovereign Bank soon. Hopefully everything pulls through.

I went to see IJ4 last night, I have to say I was pretty disappointed, there were a lot of WTF moments. There were really cool action scenes too, but the end was just retarded. There is a girl. I don't know if I want a relationship. But I don't want her to lose interest if I don't delve into a relationship, so I might as well try it out. She's damnnnnnn cute. :)

I'm making room to work out pretty much everyday now. Slowly my lungs are rebuilding after all those years of smoking. I feel better than ever. I may smoke once in awhile if someone offers one or I am completely smashed, otherwise no more smoking. I want to walk around shirtless and feel good about it, it's a wall I've been trying to climb for awhile.

A Shot at Love 2 is wayyyyy better than the first season. The show's not even interesting because of Tila, she's pretty much a bore unless she's wearing a bathing suit. Rather, the characters are just awesome. They're probably actors. The show is really fake. It reminds me of professional wrestling, no matter how fake it is, it's still pretty damn entertaining. I'm glad Bo got his face smashed in. Chad and Jay's bromance was the greatest part of the show, too bad he had to go. Jay's a bad representation of Jersey though. The thing that made me smirk was that Jay calls Bo "just some hick from Ohio" when Chad lives just one state north of Ohio. Kyle made me crack up, every time he glared I got knots in my stomach. So good. Oh and how does Glitter keep getting a key. Seriously. She kicks George out but keeps shit-for-brains Glitter. There is nothing more annoying than her crying loudly and saying "I JUST WANT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH TILA!!!" God just stfu. Anyway I like where this show is going and I hope there are like 10 more to come and it outlasts Flav.

I don't really care if you call me gay for making a livejournal, it's a lot better than myspace blogs. Also, my room mate has a xanga and I used to make fun of him for it, so that makes me feel a little better. I went to the mall and chilled with Bob, Kathleen and her group, then went to see Iron Man with Bob. I was impressed, and rank it as the third best superhero movie so far. The first two Spider-Man's of course surpass it in greatness. (Third was bitterly disappointing). Bob and I got into some shenanigans the night before this that basically had me shaking for an hour. I love getting a rush.

Anyway, I can't stop listening to the M.I.A. - Paper Planes after watching the Pineapple Express trailer. It makes me happy. But yeah I haven't reflected on my life lately, and I feel like doing so now. I was reading Gabby's journal because I favorite'd it a couple years ago. Then I hung out with her because I missed her.

I also recently had an astounding revelation. It seems my grades are actually higher when I have a girlfriend. Pretty ironic, eh? I guess it's because I have someone to vent to, and someone to confide in. I am also more prone to studying when I am content. When I am depressed, my motivation is pretty much nonexistent. I've been job-hunting a lot lately, and my two favorite opportunities at this point are at Sovereign Bank and Wawa. My dad has been on my ass non-stop. I tried to move out a couple days after I came home, mainly because he was being a dickhead 24/7, and I'd rather be homeless then put up with his bullshit all day. Not even kidding. Yes I appreciate that he is a providing father, but he has a terribly short temper (probably where I get it), puts pressure on me the most because my failures of brothers, and is intimidating to the point where you just want to crawl out of your skin. My mom has been taking his bullshit for 30+ years so I feel the most for her. Her recent medical problems haven't helped either. Life is just a huge clusterfuck at this point. I don't know if Pharmacy is what I want or it's just what my Dad wants. It could be both, but I don't think I would put more effort into anything else. I just need a driving force. A girlfriend. A best friend. Don't get me wrong, Bob is my best friend and always will be, but I mean best friend in two different ways. By the way, the comment saying "ron uses wrong, it's so wrong" made me LOL in real life. Like seriously, where do you pull your obscene ideas from? Sometimes I really wonder how someone could lie and make retarded accusations without any evidence, ALL THE TIME. Worthless. Anyway, so far on my 7 month fiasco I've seen: Bob, Brian, Kathleen (her whole gang too), Gabby, Azn Mike (his whole group), Carmena, and Vic.  Everyone that I mentioned has always been a loyal friend and someone I could talk to. Not much time spent with them though, job-hunting and my dad constantly making me his slave have kept me busy. I hope to see Rozzi, Max, and Dev too soon but my primary focus atm is getting a job, and nothing can stray me.

Well that is all for now. I'll probably write more in the near future.